Breathe.

2012-02-12T04:39:00.001+08:00

I don't want any regrets, I don't want to base my happiness or sorrow upon anybody. I want to live for myself. Me myself and I. Used to be happier that way aint it. its all my fault, im a sucker for sweet nothings. then, now, forever. I should have stuck to what I wanted -

I wanted nothing at all.

Now its become almost impossible to unwant it. now that Ive been emotionally attached. I care way too much bout you.

im a mess.

I love you so much. how i wish I dont

2012-02-09T07:59:00.001+08:00

Eating bread on the bus now. I really hate eating bread. Feel like its for babies. But ive got no choice It's gonna last me for the 3 hours lecture later. Prawning @ 10pm later with Wil, Eric, fab and Sharonlee. So many lunch/dinner dates for this whole week. Yet i have So many things incomplete. Yikes. Need more time!!!!

2012-02-08T01:05:00.001+08:00

I don't understand why some guys are such idiots. They love judging and insulting girls from top to toe.
Omg she is so fat
Omg her face damn Cui damn ugly
Omg her legs
Her thighs
Her arms
Her butt
Her tummy

Seriously !? 75 to 80 percent of guys are such bastards. And the worst part is, I don't find any of them good looking, not the least bit. Come on, there's hardly any good looking guy in Singapore. You got to agree with me on this. They've got to start looking at themselves in the mirror. Pigs.

Men are visual animals? Fuck this shit it doesnt even make sense

2012-02-01T13:13:00.001+08:00

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2012-02-01T00:27:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I really worry bout my future. I wanna be filthy rich.

2012-01-31T01:02:00.000+08:00

Was clearing folders on my hard disk when I saw this jpeg. this was like eons ago, 2, 3 years back?

HAHA miss the times we did stupid things on webcam.

2012-01-30T01:33:00.001+08:00

Study hard study hard study hard!
Hardcore mode till may

2012-01-25T23:39:00.001+08:00

SHUCKS I think I should keep my mouth shut whenever I'm not sober shit shit shit so fucking embarrassed now SHITZ

2012-01-20T03:12:00.000+08:00

If I were a boy

Even just for a day

I'd roll out of bed in the morning

And throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls

I'd kick it with who I wanted

And I'd never get confronted for it

Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

Was at brewbaker's just now when they played this song. I kinda like it alot. Makes so much sense to me, some how.

Have a guy friend who's going through a breakup recently. He told me he thinks that his gf is overly sensitive and paranoid, and that he doesn't have enough space and freedom. Not taking sides just cos hes my friend. I told him he should have thought it through before he wooed the girl in the first place. If you're not ready to commit, don't. And to all attached girls out there, don't think too much. Your head's gonna explode. If you ever find out your bf cheats on you, just ditch his sorry ass. Don't even hesitate. Its never tolerable, even if he tells you he wasn't sober then. Being bf-less is a gazillion times better than having a flirtatious bf.

New hairstyle !

gonna catch jack and jill tomorrow cant wait ^^

2012-01-18T00:16:00.001+08:00

I won't go If you don't like me to :)
Pinky swear

2012-01-17T00:02:00.002+08:00

Pictures from Last sat @ zouk
I think I'm fucking careless, I withdrew 50 bucks that night and I forgot to take the cash Omg slap myself

2012-01-09T17:18:00.000+08:00

My cny clothes are all black in colour. Mum said she wants to kill me hahahaha

BRACES IN FEBRUARY.
Aiya I will look so funny with braces confirm. But I really want perfect teeth so I'll endure metal on my teeth for 1-2 years.

2012-01-09T00:36:00.002+08:00

Ytd night was a fun night. Had Sharon, Kaiwei, junshen, wenjie, Andy and Wil over for steamboat, mahjong and ban luck. Tits popped over to say hi @ ard 1am.

Love gatherings like this!

Finally got my brows trimmed. Love it! Its kinda thin though.

2012-01-07T02:01:00.001+08:00

Sleep when you're tired. Stop thinking when your head's too messed up. Your heart breaks, but it doesn't stop beating.

Or... Does it?

Serves you right, you should have learnt your lesson three years ago.

2012-01-04T00:05:00.001+08:00

I fulfilled the role of a good gf today I bought wil dinner and helped him tidy up his closet. My own closet is like ... Errr .. Hahaha

Cya tmr love!

2012-01-02T22:55:00.002+08:00

I failed today...

2012-01-02T01:14:00.000+08:00

Taiwan

Dear wilson,
These three years, with you by my side, have been great. You're one out of the few who sincerely care about me. I hope we won't quarrel over trivial matters anymore.

Love,
your girlfriend

2012-01-01T05:26:00.000+08:00

Time check: 5.17am
Lying under my blanket and yet I can't seem to fall asleep.
Just returned from prawning session @ punggol marina with Kaiwei, js, and company.
Counted down to 12am with Wil Wil.
2011 has been a pretty bad year for me, wasnt exactly smooth sailing for me. but the good thing was I made lots of awesome new friends.
New year resolution doesn't really work for me, but I'll try to be a better person, daughter, girlfriend and friend. Will study harder and lead a healthier lifestyle, meaning lesser clubbing, lesser getting drunk, lesser smoking even when I go clubbing.

I'm gonna be less emotional too.
Hopefully...

2011-12-30T12:58:00.000+08:00

I think I have trust issues. Stop bothering, stop worrying, stop thinking.

2011-12-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel so confused, I don't even know what I am thinking of or what the hell I want for myself. It seems as though no one will ever understand me, of course, I dont even understand myself. How I wish I can have a fuck care attitude towards everything, but I cant. My brain is not wired that way. Must stop getting brainfucked all the time. stop relying one one person to make yourself happy, the one person who gets into your head and takes over your mind, once you're with that person you forget who you are and all the other things you care about. And all that matters is sustaining that dysfunctional relationship. stop. stop. stop

2011-12-18T23:19:00.001+08:00

It is with true love as it is with ghosts; everyone talks about it, but few have seen it.

2011-12-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

Red lipstick

Have I mentioned I got so so wasted last Sat. Worst hangover since last year's Shanghai dolly experience.

And I hate how super friendly I become when I'm drunk. Seriously must control.

Zoukout this Sat with kaiwei. My first time! Anyone going?

TAIWAN IN 12 DAYS BABY

Haircut?

2011-12-07T00:35:00.001+08:00

Should I cut my hair short? I rly rly like Victoria beckham's hairstyle but I'm afraid I'll regret it aft I cut my hair short. Because my hair takes a freaking long time to grow.

My hair is so damaged now, damn. Must be my excessive dyeing.

HOW? Eric said if I cut my hair short we won't be tight friends anymore :(

Wil's off in Brunei, he told me to surprise him with a new haircut when he returns hahaha

2011-12-05T22:59:00.001+08:00

Being able to love is a gift. So, start loving unconditionally now.

2011-11-25T09:45:00.001+08:00

Yay booked hotel and flight for Taiwan!!!

2011-11-22T13:01:00.001+08:00

Where ever you go, there you are. Going day by day... So let's see where it takes me. Namaste.

2011-11-20T22:41:00.003+08:00

Almost died this morning. I was at powerhouse yesterday night with Reuben, kokwei and Brandon, went home at 4am, only to realise I have driving lesson at 8 30 in the morning

But I survived it so yay to me.

Eric and I watched happy feet 2 on fri. It was beyond adorable I love Erik the penguin inside. He looks like a ball of fluff, and he speaks with such baby voice I just wanna squeeze and bite him. Speaking of that Yurong probably thinks I'm sick and weird again cos I have the urge to bite anything that looks cute. Hehe

Its gna be a really busy week ahead. School, work, driving, workouts, m'sia trip with family, plan my Taiwan trip (josh and his Gf might be joining Wil and I for the trip ^^ )

Note to self: study the fuck out of econs ugh

hehe ciao!

2011-11-16T23:33:00.003+08:00

Just when I thought we became so much closer after that night, we lost it again.
It's all my fault, always. Really. Since when has it not been? I'm a meanie, im insensitive, I'm the worst person on earth. We quarreled, I realized I was too mean and nasty, I apologized profusely, we made up. This has become a standard routine in our relationship. Sometimes I feel we are crazy to be together, we are too different from each other, we could very well be the most incompatible couple on earth.
Actually Sometimes I do wonder if you'll regret it and miss me if I disappear from your life one day, when I'm too tired to ditch my pride anymore. When I'm tired of apologizing. When I stop turning a blind eye to our differences. When I lose the ability to feel sad.

But then again, who will regret losing me? I am the lousiest girlfriend/friend one can ever get. Even I wouldnt date myself.

I might just close my heart permanently.

2011-11-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

Me is going to Taiwan this December!!!!
So excited about the trip I spent the whole day researching on airfares, hotels, places to visit etc
:D :D :D

2011-11-12T00:18:00.001+08:00

Nights like this: nice dinner, strolling, talking and laughing in the park. No fighting, no quarelling.
It's been a long while since we last spent such quality time together.
I love times like this because they remind me of how much we used to love each other.
It can't be that hard right?

2011-11-11T19:54:00.000+08:00

Someone like you

Am I the only one feeling there are somethings different now

2011-11-08T10:33:00.002+08:00

Barney: Ladies and Gentlemen- for the first time ever, Marshall Eriksen and Lily Aldrin!
Lily: Does it make you kinda sad that we don't share the same last name?
Marshall: You know- in a totally evolved, 21st century kinda way, yeah, a little.
Lily: You know what we should do? We should come up with a whole new last name.
Marshall: Oh, that's easy- Lily and Marshall Skywalker.
Lily: Lily and Marshall Hasselhoff.
Marshall: I got it! You ready? You ready? Lily and Marshall Awesome. Have you met the Awesomes? Marshall, Lily, their son Totally, and their daughter Freakin'?
Lily: [laughs] I love you, Mr. Awesome.
Marshall: I love you, Mrs. Awesome.

2011-11-06T02:35:00.002+08:00

I almost could say forever.

2011-11-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

Hate myself.

2011-11-02T07:34:00.000+08:00

Guess who showed up at my house at 2am yesterday!!! I was so damn happy even though I was so tired :D
But he left for camp and I left for school this morning. It's alright! Still a great way to kickstart the morning!

2011-10-31T00:53:00.001+08:00

What I can't stand most apart from ah tiongs: people who declare their love for their gfs or bfs on fb, ALL THE TIME. Worst of all: their cui English. Everytime I read grammatical errors I feel like digging my eye balls out. No kidding.

Not trying to be sour grapes here, I absolutely love sweet, mushy couple talk, but IN PRIVATE please. Alot of friends say wil and i are like non existential on fb, not like other normal couples. Some of my friends even asked whether we're still together. Hahaha OF COURSE! We have been together for such a long time, I love him alot and appreciate a great deal of the things he does for me, but still we don't go around making people throw up with our mushy talk

Maybe on my blog yes la I admit im damn disgusting sometimes hahaha but it's not like many know the existence of this site. Maybe just a few close friends? Since I've removed my link from everywhere a long time ago.

Okok Nuff blabbering Gonna sleep now ciao!

2011-10-26T14:24:00.001+08:00

" That's my sweetheart in there. Wherever she is, that's where my home is."

I know I'm so slow but I just finished watching The Notebook and Omg I almost cried myself to death. aaaah Im such a sucker for those sweeping love stories.

2011-10-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

Get better

2011-10-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

Life seems sad and tiring again. Are there any happy pills we can take to make ourselves less miserable? I feel terrible again.

I think maybe I'm down with fever

How I wish youre beside me now, so that I can talk to you. but that's not possible.
Sigh

2011-10-21T10:40:00.004+08:00

I'm so angry with Wilson now!! Stupid Wilson didnt wanna call me cos I was asleep (cos I didn't reply to his text :/) Goshhhhh I miss my girlfriend so much I haven't been talkin to him since last week :/

Last sat Wil and I had a tiff. Thanks to me lah I accidentally hit him in the face and I didn't apologize. Cos I was like too busy deciding what to buy. Okay that is a lame excuse. Anyway Kaiwei and Andy said I am damn violent and fierce and that I always bully Wilson. Seriously??? They don't even know Wilson!! Aiya I think I'm gonna try being a nice and gentle girlfriend. These two words sound totally wrong on me but nvm, one can change if she wants to.

TODAY IS FRI ! Going school for econs Lecture :( then meeting Jian hong (Aunty Goh) for dinner yay we're going to grandma's cafe !!!

2011-10-13T18:04:00.003+08:00

I just mounted this onto my wall yesterday. I used black and white magazine cutouts. From left: Givenchy, Tom Hil, then Guess. Isn't it nice!

So anyway like around 3 weeks ago I dyed my hair black. Since then everybody has been telling me they're not used to seeing me with black hair. The only people who said I look nicer with black hair are Wil and my mom. Gooosh why can't I pull off the black hair look

ITS NOT THAT BAD RIGHT

I LOOOOOOOVE this marshmallow whip facial wash by Biore. It is really gentle on the skin which is great because I have really sensitive skin. Plus it smells like baby powder ^^

Gigantic comb I got from F21. I can't seem to comb my hair with normal combs because my hair is just like one ginormous entangled mess.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR SATURDAY NIGHT Hanle and I are either going drinking or clubbing and hopefully yurong makes it aaaah I can't wait I love the both of them sho much
YU RONG WHY YOU ALWAYS TAKE FOREVER TO REPLY SMS WHY

2011-10-08T12:13:00.000+08:00

Everybody is driving me crazy. Fuck.
I Seriously want lots and lots of money so I can buy myself a house and some privacy
I wanna move out badly
Fuck my life
Fuck fuck fuck

2011-10-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

Winter

Caught this movie with Eric and his friend, Carina today. Thank god i watched it, it is really an amazing movie. Kinda motivates handicapped people they have carry on with their lives well too.
Now I understand why some people choose to be marine biologists, veterinarians or zoo keepers.
Sometimes its much nicer to be around animals than human beings. Human beings are so scheming. They may be all smiles towards you but you'll never know what they're thinking of. Hmm.

Anyway, you can look at winter here : seewinter.com
just click on the winter webcam at the top of the page

2011-10-01T14:33:00.001+08:00

2011-09-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

Dont ever show your weakness, even if it is killing you inside.

2011-09-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

Clean Slate

After every mistake, I'll tell myself: I'm gonna start my life with a clean slate. Then I begin to make my mark. Face decisions, make choices, keep attempting to move forward. But sooner or later, I look back over to where I have been.

Have I really made a difference to my life?

I really want everything in my life to get better, so badly. I don't wanna feel like a loser, miserable and pathetic anymore.
I want things to be on the right track again. Desperately...

2011-09-20T00:05:00.001+08:00

Donna Karen

Gosh I just spent 89 USD on this pair of Donna Karen shades. This is what happens when I have too much free time. TOO MUCH. I've got to seriously stop shopping online.... since I'm living on a MEAGRE monthly allowance now.

But still.............. I LOVE THE SHADES lah hahahah. can't wait to receive it.

2011-09-15T09:09:00.002+08:00

How can the lecturer sound so excited when talking about MATHS?

2011-09-14T23:22:00.001+08:00

So I watched crazy stupid love today.
It was crazy, not stupid and I loved it! Hahaha quoting Nina dobrev.
Removed stitches today and it was really bad it didn't heal well. sigh I dont even dare to look at it now it's so freaking hideous, wish I can bandage it up forever.
Feel so self conscious about my scars I keep wearing long sleeves :( this is really bad.
Lots of long sleeves and lots of black. Hahaha ok the wearing black doesnt make sense. i just like it cos I think black's nice.

Stupid ugly scars I hate you

2011-09-14T10:20:00.000+08:00

I had a great sleep! I dreamt about you hehe. Today's going to be better
Removing my stitches today.
Catching crazy stupid love with Ashlyn today!

Can't wait to watch the movie
Ciao!

2011-09-12T14:18:00.000+08:00

I think Suri Cruise is super cute. (Tom cruise's and Katie Holmes' daughter)

http://www.suricruisefashion.blogspot.com

I was looking at the posts. Man shes rly a little fashionista. She wears burberry, dolce and gabbana, carries ferragamo handbags at the age of 5 zzz. Seriously I feel so sad about my life.

Anyway baby girl clothes are super adorable. if I have a daughter next time I'm gonna splurge on her dresses and shoes. If I have a son I'll cry. hahaha

Anw I read from a few sources that suri cruise's really spoilt. Who cares, the papz are just jealous of her because shes born with a silver spoon in her mouth. Shes gonna grow up to be so pretty and have such a good life. period.

http://surisburnbook.tumblr.com/

this's quite hilarious

JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE A FERRAGAMO HANDBAG DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN BEHAVE LIKE A CHILD.(I'M LOOKING AT YOU, SHILOH.)

Seriously Shiloh jolie-pitt's a disaster compared to Suri cruise. Her parents are no doubt the hottest hollywood couple around but she looks like a freaking tomboy.

2011-09-06T01:50:00.002+08:00

Just a kiss

I rly like instagram!
 

My wounds are all better, they're all healing. Its getting so itchy I really wanna scratch it but I can't or it'll start bleeding again. :/

Anyway my arm looks really ugly now :(

Josh came over to Kovan to meet me today ^^ Finally passed him his birthday present (his birthday was in march hahaha) from yuki and I. An elephant-print boxer. Its damn cute but he looked so embarrassed when I passed him the box haha!

We had a nice time catching up. He told me about how all the guys in the army stalk girls on fb during their free time in camp. Apparently Keith's section mates all know me. Through stalking my fb =.=
Why don't they have anything better to do ? Anyway since they have so much free time to kill I gave Josh a few girls' url to stalk. ha ha ha ha

Anyhow, something funny..........

Hahahaha why is my best bro so damn childish leh. Hai

2011-09-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

Gotta control my own temper. It's killing me.

2011-09-04T10:47:00.002+08:00

Bad Girls vs. Good Girls

There's an old joke that goes: Good girls say, "No;" bad girls ask, "When?"

the goods on the bad girl

She's fun She can party all night, drink herself into a stupor and still get up the next day and be ready for more. She'll laugh and flirt, and make you feel like a man.

She's exciting
Bad girls are walking adrenaline rushes. For her, life is a roller coaster ride, and it'll get your blood singing just to be along for the trip. Bad girls never have time for introspection or depression -- they're too busy grabbing the world by the horns.

She craves sex
The bad girl loves men and makes no bones about it. She's more than happy to fulfill any fantasy you can dream up. She's the kind who will tear up the sheets while she's screaming out her seventh orgasm in a row (you'll feel like you're the king of the sexual world). And you won't have to deal with any head games -- she's more than happy to seduce you 24/7.

She's eye candy
Bad girls are usually very attractive -- the ultimate "hot babes." They know how to walk the walk and strut their stuff. They get off on being the center of male attention. A bad girl loves plunging necklines, bare midriffs, high heels, skirts hemmed at mid-thigh, strapless anything, and sexy lingerie (if she wears any underwear at all).

She ups your status
When you have a stunner like this on your arm, all other men are jealous and women are intrigued, and immediately your stud rating soars into the stratosphere. You'll be the stuff of legends when you regale your buddies with tales from your bedroom.

the bads on the bad girl

She's untrustworthy
All men want her and she knows it, and she's definitely a serial flirterr. Because she's such a sexual animal, she's apt to seduce anyone who strikes her fancy, so you shouldn't expect a bad girl to be loyal.

She's dangerous
She's the type who will go 100 in a 30 mph zone just because she likes the rush. She may be into drugs or excessive alcohol consumption. She's spontaneous, unpredictable and wild.

She makes a bad partner
Bad girls are extremely self-obsessed and selfish. They think about one person: themselves. They're extravagant and will spend their last dime on themselves. They don't settle down comfortably. For these reasons, they usually make lousy wives and mothers, and rarely survive lifelong relationships.

She is expensive
No low-maintenance here -- from day one she'll be looting your wallet for expensive meals, trips and jewelry. The typical bad girl sets a very high price on the use of her vagina, and if you don't want to cough up the cash, there'll be plenty of guys panting in the wings to pay her price.

the goods on the good girl

She's wholesome and nice
A good girl is rarely bitchy or "empowered." She's pleasant to be around and has a positive attitude toward life. She'll go out of her way to help you or take care of you when you're sick, and when problems arise, she'll discuss them calmly, instead of flying into a rage or screaming at you just because you're a "man."

She's a clean slate
With her limited sexual experience, a good girl doesn't have a lot of men to compare you to and won't expect you to be a world-class lover.

She's unlikely to cheat on you
Good girls tend to be homebodies, not party girls. Because she doesn't present herself in the same sexually-alluring manner that a bad girl does, you won't have to worry about a lot of other guys coming on to her. A good girl wants to find the one true love of her life and stay with him until death do them part, instead of seducing half the male population before she gets too old.

She's often your best friend
She genuinely enjoys your company and gives back to you as much as she takes. When you're gone, she misses you; when you're at home, she showers you with attention.

She's easier on finances
Good girls can rate low on the maintenance scale -- they're much more likely to share dating expenses (just because it's the right thing to do), and if you get married, she'll happily throw her paycheck in with yours to pay the mortgage and bills.

She makes a good wife & mother
The typical good girl is practical, down-to-earth and nurturing. She loves children. She usually comes from a good family and wants to carry on those family values in her own life.

The bads on the good girl

She's about as exciting as vanilla
Since she'd rather stay at home reading a book than go out partying, life with a good girl can be a bit uneventful.

She can be a sexual dud
Good girls are often boring in bed, either from lack of experience or lack of desire. Sex with her is predictable. She rarely inspires lust and will probably wait for her man to initiate lovemaking. This can leave the typical guy very unfulfilled, his gaze straying toward that bad girl over there with the unfettered nipples and the long wraparound legs.

She's fashionably comfortable
She wears her hair pulled back and little make-up. She prefers sweats and tennis shoes to mini skirts and pumps. Oftentimes, you can forget about thong underwear.

the good to bad

So the question remains: Which one should you choose? The obvious answer is that the perfect woman would embody the best of both of these types -- the niceness and loyalty of the good girl and the sexual abandon of the bad girl.

While such women may exist naturally out there, it's more likely that, to achieve this ideal, you'll have to train a good girl to be bad (because there's no way a bad girl is going to be good).

Interesting huh? Chanced upon this article on askmen.com

If I were to choose between good and bad boys, bad boys definitely! Bad boys are sexier and most of the time better looking. hahaha!

2011-09-01T19:37:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a very very very scary day. Wil and I were on the way to klp, then suddenly the bike hit the kerb and the railing along the expressway. The next thing I knew, we were already rolling off the bike. And the bike landed in the middle of the road.

I could only remember Wil rushing over to bring me to the side of the road. Then our jeans were all torn. Saw this humongous deep laceration on my left arm and blood just kept gushing out of the wound. Then on the bottom part of my arm there was this thing poking out of my flesh I thought it was only a big blood clot but the paramedics kept on scaring me by saying they suspect a deformity in my arm and that it was my bone jagging out.

They gave me a bad scare! Obviously it wasnt. I didn't even feel any pain in my bones at all!

The worst part was the cleaning. The doc dripped alcohol on my open wound I seriously felt like dying. I can't describe the kind of pain it was definitely worse than excruciating. I had 12 ugly stitches. Lucky I didn't feel a tinge of pain during the process. But I'm gonna have a hideous scar for life. :(

Thank god Wil was alright; even though he had abrasions everywhere. Legs, arms, stomach. I was so so so afraid something wld happen to him :( :( if something really did happen to him I will feel so guilty. If I hadn't ask him to go ice skating none of these wld have happened...
Thank god we werent hit by a car or we could have lost our lives.

I was so panicky when all these happened I called hanle immediately. And she rushed down to the hospital to find us. So damn touching ;(

Thankful for the two kind uncles who stopped to help us call for ambulance, Wil Wil who looked so freakishly chill the whole while hahaha, hanle for always being there! , Yuki who sounded so freaked out haha,
Kaiwei the idiot who said i fell off the bike cos i was too fat!!! van for the texts:):) , Yurong for being so exaggerating and funny! and of course josh the best bro! Who told me we
need to smoke it out -.-

Luv you guys so much <3

2011-08-29T00:52:00.004+08:00

Today was such a happy day because I was out with wil wil the entire day.
Haven't met him at all for two weeks.

Shopped for his jeans and shoes.
And we caught Final destination 5. Fucking sick I swear. Throughout the whole movie I kept on saying "what the fuck?!" I seriously don't like any gory/ghost/sci fi movies at all. The only genres of movies I like are any kind of comedies, romantic comedies and chick flicks. No choice I'm such a hippie hahaha

Had dinner at Kiseki Japanese buffet restaurant at Heeren. Its 40 plus per pax during dinner time.
It was really nice we ate so much till we almost had no room for dessert.

This is just like not even half of what we ate hahaha

Black and white photo because my complexion is really bad now. Even wilson said so. Then he hao lian abt his complexion agn and he told me to drink lots and lots of water and sleep early.
So Im gonna hit the sack now. Mission rescue-my-face starts from tomorrow onwards

Ciao! Seriously hope ww gets to book out tomorrow then we're gonna go drinking tomorrow night =)

2011-08-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

Hot

Cant get enough of him.
Esp his eyes. So blue, so sexy.

2011-08-22T22:46:00.001+08:00

I think that you're hurt.
Mmm... No I don't get hurt.
No, you don't admit that you get hurt. You get angry, cover it up, then you do something stupid.

2011-08-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

I LOVE BARNEY HEHE

2011-08-18T18:15:00.000+08:00

Travelling to school took me almost two hours...

Anyway on the journey I looked at my past blog entries and some of the stuff I wrote when I was young was so stupid I couldn't help smiling to myself.

It was so much easier to be happy in the past. There wasnt any need to hide your own feelings.
I could get angry or happy whenever I felt like.
Now life is just so difficult.
Why is that so?

2011-08-17T19:10:00.000+08:00

Pumped up Kicks by Foster the people

Man I'm so into this song now

And Cubbie Fink looks really really cute aw

2011-08-16T13:27:00.000+08:00

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

you'd better run, better run

outrun my gun

2011-08-14T01:26:00.000+08:00

Life sucks! Why did I gain so much weight zzz I feel flabby and disgusting and ugly. Stupid fat face. Ugly hair. Fats all over my body!!! Zomg I should just hide under my blanket and die of fatness

Kill me

2011-08-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

It really pissing me off when you compete with me over everything. Including winning over my friends. I'll just let you win ok

2011-08-11T18:01:00.000+08:00

21st

Happy belated birthday to you!

2011-08-04T00:21:00.001+08:00

Afraid, not

I don't think anyone knows as much about what's right for me as I do.

2011-08-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

Life has been getting better.
I've stopped staying up till 6am before going to bed.
In fact I'm gonna turn in now. Though Its only eleven freakin thirty nine
I'll try to sleep........
Can't wait for the week to end
Can't wait to see you
:)

2011-07-30T00:54:00.002+08:00

Hope you're doing great

2011-07-29T01:17:00.002+08:00

Partay

best bro! so freaking hard to snap a picture of his ugly hair. But I succeeded!

Josh the American punk.

Keith

And Reuben

Sick night.

I secretly took videos of Keith dancing. And videos of Reuben and Keith flirting with girls.

Joshua still the most decent hohoho

Met up with Tits ytd. He kept forcing me to say out what my problems are. They aren't serious. Just normal stupid problems :/

You wrong came sk to find me today. Watched X men first class in my house. Then had dinner with Edward, who drove us to chung cheng (we sneaked in!!) then we went udders for ice cream before heading home

I may be happier these few days. With my friends around me. Goody, an improvement

Shall hit the sack now nights

2011-07-24T23:51:00.002+08:00

My favourite face in the world.

There's always the somebody we feel most comfortable around.

Bare faced / sloppy dressing / bad hair day, it doesn't matter.

The someone I love to snuggle up to while catching a late movie together.

Someone I can share all my stupid secrets with.

Someone I want to spend as much time with as possible.

I'm gonna jog all the way to Jalan Kayu tomorrow, before the sun is up.

Hopefully.

Ciao ~

2011-07-22T00:28:00.002+08:00

Everybody hurts just a little too much

Life has been the same. Did some drawing today. I thought I did a pretty good job ha.

Tomorrow I'll be finishing up on my room's curtains. The paint guy'll be coming over on Sat to paint the house.

So....
I'll be meeting Leon, Reuben and keith tomorrow, and maybe Josh.
Clubbing, maybe?

Joshua Sim
since when..
but dont stay till so late lah
tiring
2 hours ago
Xiaoxuan See
you got remedial training is it
i am your best bro leh there is no shame in telling me
2 hours ago
Joshua Sim
LOL
must see tmr
tmr got ippt
2 hours ago
Xiaoxuan See
good luckaj
2 hours ago
Joshua Sim
if fail/pass then got remedial

Xiaoxuan See
you can one la be a man

2 hours ago
Joshua Sim
i try to get silver
for you leh best bro

2 hours ago
Xiaoxuan See
HAHA

2 hours ago
Joshua Sim
easier said than done fuck!

Haha my best bro seriously, even though I know
he is talking nonsense.
Hope I can talk to my listening ear tmr!

2011-07-21T01:36:00.000+08:00

I just bought this Metal Filigree chunky necklace online.

Will be arriving on 4th of August

Can't wait ^^

2011-07-19T15:20:00.002+08:00

Darkness, sweetness

Dear Diary,

Today I've convinced myself it's ok to give up. Don't take risks. Stick with the status quo, no drama. Now is just, not the time. But my reasons aren't reasons, they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth, and the truth is that I'm scared. I'm scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment, that the world is going to come crashing down and I don't know if I can survive that.

2011-07-14T23:04:00.001+08:00

Give me back my heart.

2011-07-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

Life is fucking unfair.
Do you have any fucking idea how hard I worked?

2011-07-09T20:18:00.001+08:00

I'm always alone.

2011-07-07T16:19:00.001+08:00

What are words

I have a new favourite hangout - wild oats bar at punggol park. Nice ambience, nice drinks, nice food. I guess I really don't like clubbing as much now. Just feel lazy to dress up to go to the club, and I feel disgusted when I see drunk bitches, even more disgusted with guys who try to take advantage of them.

So anyway, went oats with kaiwei ytd night. Had pregnant fish (yummy), hot wings with Heineken. Fattening I know! But that was pretty much what I had for the whole of yesterday

Had a long chat all the way till 2 am. Talked about life, friends etc

Agree with something he said. Like a mirror, if that friend is genuine, you'll be genuine as well. If it is someone not truthful, you play along. Words are cheap. Doesn't kill to not say the truth to people you don't give a shit about.

Really wanna rent a 3 room apartment in Clementi when uni starts.

Kw and I are looking for room mates, interested friends give me a ring :)

damn funny

kw " Eh if you become my room mate, will you mind if i bring girls home for the night"

me " of course not la, I'll even make breakfast for her "

kw " hahaha wow you great roommate leh "

But we're both so messy so we'll find a cleaner and tidier person to live with, heh. Really sounds exciting. Just imagine. Anytime we want to host a house party - our apartment. Anytime any friend needs a place to crash - our apartment. Really hope we can find enough friends to rent out.

2011-07-06T13:34:00.003+08:00

I try to be perfect, but nothing was worth it

It hurts when someone close to you (or so you thought) disappoints you.

Changes are inevitable. Nothing stays constant. Everyone changes. Every minute, every second.

It's hard to find a confidante today. Who's great enough to accept your changes, your flaws without judging you? No one.

Hate it when you think I have alot of friends.

I don't.

Surrounded by many, mostly just superficial.
At the end of the day, you're still alone.

I miss my one and only best friend ...

2011-07-02T13:05:00.001+08:00

Getaway.

Back from 3days2nights @ Genting. Bloody cold, almost like Sydney.

You wrong stayed over at my place before we headed for kovan terminal. Didn't sleep a wink!

Sigh and i look fucking cui in specs haha

Ths bus damn shiok cos we were the only 5 people in the entire double decker bus.

But the tour guide sucked. She speaks with the stupid nasal voice, plus her malaysian accent.

Rly cannot tahan we were all containing our laughter. Stupid kaiwei buried his entire face into his seat, I see alr buay tahan bursted out laughing

Waiting for toilet that time damn funny. The tour guide walked over and asked us to faster return to the bus

she was like " hao le kuai dian shang ba shi, bu yao zai mai dong xi le"

then jixiong was like " hao okay "

then he suddenly said "on second thought i think i'll go get a drink" then he walked into the convenience store

imagine her face? just dulan until damn funny

the sides damn gross

damn damn foggy

malaysia's like a heaven for smokers. theres no nea to fine you , ciggs cheap like dno what

See the ah ma 's face ROFL

Cave temple

Walked past all 10 chambers of hell. Seems like its quite easy to get into hell when you die. If you're rude to anyone, if you swear, if you lie, if you cheat , if you litter, even if you are too VAIN you 'll go to hell.

haha

My shades sistas hahahaha

See the horse's face like fucking funny

got 99.9% similarity dont you think

they eat herbal eggs almost everyday. got so nice !???

this one damn lame. imagine 5 people smashing the machine at the same time

first night ended quite early so kaiwei and i decided to go buy liquor for everybody then drink in hotel room.

sml we walked the whole of genting never sell liquor. then we managed to find a supermarket beside old town coffee.

but only got beer and breezers =.=

so we carried like damn alot of bottles, wanted to walk back to first word. then the timing damn bad, arena of stars just ended all the uncles aunties jammed up the place.

had a fucking bad idea, we decided to walk the outskirt of genting, damn scary know. then we were walking more and more downhill, until we reached this dilapidated stairs, walked all the way up to reach an even more dilapidated carpark. guess what , we were at b9!!

then we carried all the bottles and walked up all the way to 1st floor. then the doors were all LOCKED. and the lifts were not working.

damn scary i swear, we ran up anddown the stupid stairs to find unlocked doors, suddenly i see kaiwei staring at the window, freaked me out sia

when we managed to get back to hotel lobby he told me he saw a shadow running past

Walao lucky he didnt tell me if not i just faint on the spot

notdrunk. this happens everytime i touch alcohol. even champagne hahah

drunk casey. she looks so cute hor

so so wasted

the roller coaster like not scary one but we just screamed to irritate people

i swear the malaysians damn weird. when they play bumper car they try to avoid bumping into each other

when we played it was just like havoc we kept on bamming each other and get stucked together

pirate ship. hahaha damn no kick but we see everybody sitting infront of us so quiet we made damn alot of sound effect. then i think kw damn paiseh he sat damn far away from us

he said the malaysians infront said the peoeple behind(referrin to us) screamed like bapoks

i played this leh mai siao siao

showing the yurong's face

the haunted house damn LAME. no element of surprise/fear at all. hahahah but casey and i just screamed to freak the people outside.

when it ended kaiwei was like clap clap you two damn power, managed to scream at nothing

swear my life im never ever going to sit in the same teacup with yurong and jixiong ever again. tthey turned the cup like mad seriously. the two children beside us just stared at us like we were mad.

and i puked aft the teacup sigh

the zombie./bat thang damn scary looking. told casey to talk pic with it she kept saying walao damn scary leh we are back facing him later he suddenly come scare us

hahaha zzzz

cold until i squat down in the carriage

our three brave warriors conquered the space shot.

i damn chieken sia i think i'll never dare totry this

the smoke was blowing directly at me the whole time. swear my hair and my face and clothes smelled like shit aft dinner

managed to find the only pub in genting

tea after beer thumbs up!

this game like cute, flip the board and get tickets.

tadah thats all!

my life style has been so unhealthy ever since genting. I've been drinking every single night zzz

ytd wil and i went to this new bar wild o.a.t.s in punggol park and we each had one pint of beeralamak.

esp now im starting on my exercise regime, which has not been successful for a single day becuz i keep putting it off. hehe

but nvm since hanle and i are signing up for muaythai class hohoho

i really want abs leyyyyy

2011-06-27T01:05:00.001+08:00

With a pinch of salt

Visited "With a pinch of salt" today. It's located outside my secondary school. Man I love that area, brings back great memories.

The decors, the furniture in the restaurant were so cute. It was like having lunch in a nursery

Yummz fish and chips

"Porky goes banana" Bacon wrapped outside bananas. Not a fan of bananas :/

WILSON'S MEAT FEAST. SERIOUSLY HE MUST THANK GOD HE IS SKINNY, OR ELSE HE WILL EXPLODE LIKE A BALLOON IF HE EATS LIKE THIS.

Great place, great food. And its rather cheappp

2011-06-20T21:21:00.001+08:00

Can't help it.
Do people always mean what they say?

2011-06-18T11:30:00.003+08:00

 Day 1 @Brisbane!

Think I'm gonna blog abt my legend-wait for it-dary! 14 days trip to Australia hehe

@Changi Airport's departure hall.

With mommy.

And my dear Hui xin came to send us off!

Then we just kept ourselves occupied because the stupid plane got delayed and we had to fly to sydney instead of Brisbane =/

The BK in Australia 's called Hungry Jack's.

Finally arrived in Sydney, and we had to still wait for the domestic flight to Brisbane...............

On plane towards Brisbane~

Southbank! Our home for 7 days in brisbane hehe

In Australia, the red man flashes instead of the green man. When I saw it I panicked hahaha I thought the traffic light spoiled

MINTO HOUSE!

Our beautiful living room.

Best bacon I've ever eaten!

Hanle's favourite spring water~

That was all for Day 1 when we touched down!

DAY 2: WARNER BRO'S MOVIE WORLD!

Arrived in goldcoast!

Willie Wonka chocolates!

Batman's car

I didn't wanna take the wet rides because it was winter and it was freezing cold. Then Hanle said we can just pay $5 to dry ourselves in this machine. Can you imagine being being blown dry in this machine? How ridiculous is it going to look hahaha

The ang mor baby so cuteeeee

cheena cab

This one like damn LAME.

Day 3: SEAWORLD

Damn alot alot of sea gulls ~

Sigh hanle insisted we take this ride. Its one child + one adult. But the person let us take the ride hahahaa

pretty dolphin

So pretty the baby. Since I was young I've always wanted to marry an ang mor so that I will have pretty babies hahaha

Hanle and her disgusting face

This was damn hilarious. The polar bear dragged the bin into the water and played with it hehehe

2011-06-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

Went JB with my dearest homie & her brothers!

Remember to take the choo choo train to M'sia before it closes down on 30th June~

Life's been rath..er good, except for a certain something stuck in my head

I know I gotta deal with it, but I keep telling myself it can wait

ugh

stop procrastinating

2011-06-12T02:05:00.001+08:00

"when you come back, will we quarrel all the time again ? "
" I promise you, I will give in. I won't quarrel with you anymore "

Now I know promises are meant to be broken.

2011-06-02T23:22:00.001+08:00

So, after I came back from Australia, I fell sick again.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Really feel like removing my tonsils, but I'm afraid of the pain. And I'm not sure.... whether my voice will change. Maybe I'll start sounding like a tranny!?

Work was so bad. I was having really bad nose block, and cough. I couldnt even talk to customers properly.
This ridiculous man called in, and was really really angry at first. He kept shouting at me because apparently, his services were all terminated because he had like 2k over outstanding in his account.
Couldn't reinstate his service for him, he starting begging, and crying... He told me he was gonna jump off the building if I dont reconnect his line for him
SIGH what is wrong with these people ........ :(

Too sick to argue with him so I kept quiet.
Then eric let me go home early. So yeah I guess thats good. :)

Had dinner alone at home again, so sad.
Then Nikki called me on skype. Chatted with him for quite a while on the phone. He told me Australia's really getting colder and colder now. I Miss Australia. It was really 2 weeks of forgetting about everything, my burden, my stress in Singapore.

But then, I guess we all have to return to reality, sooner or later. Gotta face our actual lives.

The medicine's making me really drowsy, goodnight people!

2011-05-28T17:00:00.001+08:00

What the fuck is wrong with me ?

2011-05-24T14:05:00.000+08:00

Life Ain't always Beautiful

You think you're on your way

And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day.

2011-05-07T00:27:00.000+08:00

Can't wait to see this Darling tomorrow!

2011-05-05T00:19:00.001+08:00

Had a bad day :(

2011-05-04T00:51:00.001+08:00

Happy pill.

My happy pill made me keep my entire sunday free because he wanted to celebrate our anniversary as well as my birthday together with me.

On Sat night I kept asking him what the plan for sunday was but he acted all secretive and said I will find out on Sunday itself~

Went Mac to grab some shaker fries and spicy nuggets before our movie started!

Omg shaker fries, my fav.

Spicy nuggets!

Look at the amount of seaweed powder. We're gonna lose all our hair~~

So after movie Wil wil brought me to Lawry's @ Mandarin gallery for dinner.

Lawry's was damn atas. Got a shock when I opened the menu

The prices were all close to sgd 100

Mineral water @ 6.90 per bottle O.O

Stupid pinoy waitress, couldn't uds what the hell she was talking abt. She just asked us if we wanted mineral water then we just said "uh alright". Then in the end we realised If you request for tap water they won't use the Equil glass and they won't charge you $20 ++ for tap water!!

Beef stew!

Looks very normal but my goodness the Lawry's premium steak is like godly.

Best best steak I've ever eaten

$200 over for 2 pax. Seriously pretty pricey.........

Then we went to Singapore flyer. My first time ever hahaha

Sigh as if all these were not enough.

Look at what Wilson Lim got me!!

Made me super super guilty =(

According to wilwil, this necklace is made up of white gold, purple gold and diamond.

I LOVE IT but it is super expensive =(

Got wilwil a fcuk watch. Not as comparable but I really liked the design. And most importantly he loved it too ~~

I hate ns. Because of Ns we hardly get to spend time together.
We couldnt spend our anniversary together.
And I have to spend my birthday without him.
Sigh

Love you, Wilson Lim!

2011-05-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

It doesnt matter even if I'm sad because at the end of the day, at least you are there. After all, you are the only person that matters to me, the best thing that happened to me.
Happy two years, I love you.

2011-05-01T12:45:00.001+08:00

Feels like such a fucking loser.

2011-04-24T21:43:00.001+08:00

 Everyone at the f-cking label. 

Pictures taken quite sometime back.
Lets see, what have I been doing all these while.
Working and working all the time. I used to complain so much about my job but now I'm just used to it. Doesn't do that much harm now.

Look at my hair, its awful. There's like a patch of black on the top. So Im going to the salon tomorrow to dye my hair.

Aussie trip in less than half a month's time ~
Seriously need to get away.

2011-04-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

Why are you always not around ....

2011-04-03T00:16:00.001+08:00

How pretty ! Feel like investing in one of these! But If I really do my Aussie trip will be gone ~~~

I love my new bedsheet the quilt cover is so thick and cosy. And I love the smell of Pure seduction on my pillow case

Makes me wanna stay in bed forever!

2011-03-26T22:22:00.001+08:00

How good would it be if we lose the ability to feel anger, frustration, disappointment or misery.

2011-03-23T00:21:00.001+08:00

Everyone has a skeleton in the closet. We do not reveal, we speak nothing about it. But that doesn't mean we have forgotten. Be it shame or guilt, it is a wonder why every time when you're starting to feel happy about life, you start to recollect the bad memories again. Every one of them starts haunting you down, tainting your moment of contentment.

It's impossible for the human mind to forget. We hold on to our troubles because if they're gone, our securities seem to be taken away as well.

2011-03-20T15:15:00.002+08:00

Can't wait to see you later ~

I'm looking forward to Aussie trip with Hl but the very bad thing is once I come back from Australia, Wilwil will be in Thailand for three weeks.

Meaning we won't see each other for five freaking weeks!

Stupid migraine is killing me. My head's spinning like a tornado..........

Ciao

2011-03-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

How to apply for uni ?
Everything must apply online, so un- user friendly.
Headache

2011-03-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

I'm really afraid. But I'm just going to keep myself so busy I won't have the time to fret over it.

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